It’s been a while, hasn’t it?
I don’t think I’ve written a blog post since June. Honestly I just haven’t known what to write about. Over this past year my mental health has suffered quite badly, and I’d always said to myself that I’d try to write about it and be completely transparent about it whenever I could, but I got to the point where I just didn’t see the point any more. I couldn’t see what good writing about a new lipstick would do, or about 10 new material things I’d set my sights on, or some bullshit I pulled out of thin air just so I had something to write about.
In hindsight, I just had to wait it out. I needed to wait for the storm to pass.
Over the past few months I’ve been growing. These past months have been my winter full of stillness and nothingness, and now I’m starting to regrow with a whole new attitude and outlook on life. I remember writing a post at the beginning of 2018 giving it large about how this was going to be my year, I was going to sort my life out and well, I haven’t. To be honest, does anyone ever sort their life out? I feel like to make such a bold claim is nothing more than tempting fate. Sure, it’s great to be positive and optimistic, but I’d rather be able to say “Look what I’ve achieved” than “This is what I’m hoping to achieve”.
So – what have I been doing this year?
I’ve improved my cooking.
I went vegan.
I’m consciously making more ethical and eco friendly decisions.
I’ve read tons of books.
I’ve concentrated more on experiences than on material things.
I’m looking into minimalism.
I’ve remained close to my friends.
I’ve booked a trip to London and Copenhagen with my husband.
I invested in a camera to improve my photography.
I’ve taken up gardening and growing my own herbs and vegetables.
I’ve cut down on the amount of TV I watch.
I have become more interested in learning.
I’ve written a book that will probably never see the light of day.
I’ve stopped placing so much pressure on myself.
I spend more quality time with my family.
I’ve retrained my brain to have a more positive outlook.
I’ve put more thought into my environment.
I took up boxing.
I’ve learned not to impulse buy.
I’ve been more realistic with my goals.
I drink more water.
I’ve done things that scare me.
I cook things from scratch.
I’ve actively stopped watching the news and anything I find triggering.
I’m more present.
I’ve tried to exercise and meditate more.
Here’s to the new era of Kimberley.